Monday, March 31, 2025
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I'm not going anywhere today or tomorrow. I have plans for Wednesday.
I don't know what I'm doing today and tomorrow.
I ordered 2 bedspreads and a sheet set from Ikea....
Sunday, March 30, 2025
I stayed home today because the forecast called for thunderstorms and because I was so tired from yesterday.
I've written more poems today. I'm planning to make a zine with short stories and poetry. I'm considering a monthly zine.
I'm not planning to go anywhere tomorrow due to possible thunderstorms.
I do have plans for the rest of this week.
I'm hopeful that I'll have a boyfriend soon.
I made a new friend yesterday.
I'm cooking at the moment.
I'm still uncertain about everything...
Saturday, March 29, 2025
I went to the library in the town across the river from my community. I listened to a friend of mine read a few of her poems. I was there all day.
I had a free sandwich for lunch.
I made a zine with some of my poetry.
I had my copy of the book "Flamer" signed by the author.
I went by CVS on the way home because I received an email with a 2$ extra buck coupon that would have expired tomorrow.
I plan to make more zines.
I'm considering going back to library tomorrow. But most likely I won't because of the weather.
I'm still single...
Friday, March 28, 2025
I went after some free produce this morning. I had breakfast at Dunkin utilizing a promo I earned. I went to Walmart for cat food.
I'm going to a D&D program at the library in my community this evening. Tomorrow morning I'm going to a program at the library in the town across the river from my community.
I'm working towards getting things done but I'm overwhelmed. I feel uncertain. I feel like I'm forgetting something.
I want my first boyfriend soon. I'm tired of being alone and I'm horny. I need someone to share my bed with, someone to share my life with, someone to watch streaming and movies with...
Thursday, March 27, 2025
Thursday. Tomorrow is the D&D game night at the library in my community. I'm looking forward to the game.
I have no other plans for this month.
I keep thinking about having my first boyfriend. It would be great to not be alone so much.
I've been writing more poems recently. I did some laundry this morning.
I applied to a few job openings today.
Wednesday, March 26, 2025
It's Wednesday. I'm going to a free lunch today. After the lunch I'm going to Food Lion and CVS.
March is also over.
I don't know what else I'll do this week.
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Tuesday, March 25, 2005
I went to a disability resource event today. I have more information now. I won a Magic Bullet blender in a raffle today. It was a good day but it was long and sometimes overwhelming.
I went by Wendy's on the way home. I had a junior fries and a free frosty. It was one of the new flavors. I liked it.
I went by Krispy Kreme for my free 6 regular donuts for my birthday.
I'm tired. I was planning on going to more places today but I didn't have the energy to do so.
I'm going to a free lunch tomorrow. I'm going to other places tomorrow.
I'm very interested in having my first boyfriend.
Monday, March 24, 2025
Monday.
I had a difficult time sleeping last night. I was planning on going somewhere today until I learned there would be thunderstorms today. I'm planning to go somewhere tomorrow.
I don't know what I'm doing today.
I have more plans for this week.
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Sunday, March 23, 2025
I made a craft yesterday at the library in my community. I posted images of it on my social. The Pink Pony Club bracelets were delivered yesterday and her CD was delivered today.
I'm considering my options. I'd like to consider singing and doing stand-up comedy. I don't know where to start.
I'm planning to go somewhere tomorrow and I have other plans for the rest of this week.
I plan on writing more. I don't know what else I will do but I want to do more...
Saturday, March 22, 2025
Saturday. Caturday.
I went to the Queer Collective yesterday. I had a conversation with a cute guy. I made a craft which I took some photos of and I plan to post on my social today.
I'm going to a craft program at the library in my community today.
The Pink Pony Club bracelets I ordered yesterday are scheduled for delivery today. The Chappell Roan CD is on its way.
I'm considering my options. I have several things I want to work on and Chappell Roan has inspired me to not give up on my dreams.
"I know I might have never told you about the tears I've shed over these years of my life. I have been made ashamed of being myself all of my life. This year I hope to be free of that prison in my mind and find a spotlight to shine."
Friday, March 21, 2025
I just ordered the Chappell Roan CD and a pink pony club bracelet with stickers combo. I've been writing poems again and Chappell Roan was my inspiration for my return to writing poems each day. She is such an inspiration to me and I would love to tell her thanks for her songs and improving my mood. I would like to talk to her about creativity and life because I'm certain she would have so many amazing things to say.
I'm attending the Queer Collective this evening. I was planning on going to other places today but I haven't had the energy or motivation to go anywhere.
I'm hoping to get myself to do more but there are so many days that I could remain in bed. I need to get my computers working. I need to spend more time on my writing and photography and video.
I don't know what I'm doing but I want to do more than sit alone all of the time...
Thursday, March 20, 2025
It's been raining today but I'm planning to go to Rita's ice for a free ice. I'm planning to go sometime around 3PM.
I'm going to the Queer Collective tomorrow evening. I'm attending a craft program at the library in my community this Saturday.
I'm trying to get through each day.
I posted new poems this morning.
I'm uncertain about everything...
Wednesday, March 19, 2025
I had to take a nap today because I kept waking up last night. I have started to write poems again.
I'm considering going somewhere tomorrow.
I hope to find my first boyfriend and my first career but I don't know if I'll ever have these things.
I'm planning to go to the Queer Collective Friday evening. There's a craft program at the library in my community on Saturday.
Tuesday, March 18th, 2025
[Sometimes I imagine my life if things hadn't been so difficult,
If I hadn't been so different.
It's amazing to find the times gone are the times
You would Groundhog Day if you could.
I came across a moment on Google Street,
Before everything changed
And if I could I would hug the you from that moment in time
Or forever live in that moment with you
Before things became more complicated
Than I ever imagined life could become..."
Tuesday and I'm feeling tired. I feel the weight of decisions to be made, decisions I postpone because I'm afraid of what those decisions will mean and the changes they will bring to my life.
I went to a few places yesterday and this morning I had a strange dream.
I'm so uncertain about everything but listening to Chappell Roan I feel somewhat inspired. I think Chappell is such an amazing person.
I'm planning on attending a coloring program at the library in my community this evening.
I have plans for tomorrow. I plan to attend the Queer Collective Friday evening. Saturday there's a program at the library in my community. I don't know if I'll go anywhere Thursday because the forecast is calling for rain.
"Time is a crushing weight,
So many dates from my history
Remind me of my faults.
I can't pretend not to cry
Each time I reflect on the way things were before
All of those years I was stuck
Inside a shell
Waiting to find a way out
And become the person I've always been
Deep down inside..."
Monday, March 17, 2025 Saint Patrick's Day
I went to a few places today. I had a free Rita's ice, Skittles flavor, ice for my birthday. I went to Kroger to buy something that I was sent a Kroger gift card to buy. I went by Panera Bread for a free cookie for my birthday and 5$ off a sandwich. I went by another sandwich shop for a free sandwich for my birthday. I also went by Smoothie King for a $2 Smoothie for my birthday.
I was up late watching music videos on YouTube and videos about Chappell Roan. I would like to meet her.
I'm tired. It's been a long day.
There's things I want to do but I don't have the money.
Sunday, March 16, 2025
There were thunderstorms this morning so I'm still in bed. I plan to get out of bed shortly.
Last night I attended the Queer Game Night and I received a couple of gifts for my birthday.
I don't know what I'm doing today and I need to check my calendar for the rest of this week.
I'm uncertain of everything. I'm anxious about changes to my life. I wonder if I'll ever have my first boyfriend or my first career.
Saturday, March 15, 2025
It's my birthday. I'm still in bed. I had a strange dream. I was telling someone how dark it was outside despite being so late in the morning. Then there was a part of my dream in which it was dark and I was looking down a long street. It looked like lightning towards the other end of the street and suddenly a big round street light was lit by a bunch of workers who moved it into place.
I feel like having someone next to me. I feel like having a boyfriend so I wouldn't have to be in this bed alone. Earlier I thought about having a boyfriend and him being here on top of me and inside me. He would kiss me on the lips and kiss my neck while I wrapped my legs around him. I miss that physical touch. I need a boyfriend.
I didn't get the job at Funko. They didn't even interview me. I don't think I'll ever buy another Funko product. Now, I wish I hadn't bought all of the ones I've bought.
I didn't get the job at the Lego store which I knew they would not consider me since the job is in Illinois and I'm in rural south carolina.
I would have loved working at either Funko or Lego.
Today I'm going to a few places for my birthday freebies. This evening I'm going to the Queer Game Night.
I'm alone and horny. I'm depressed. I have no idea what I'm doing and I miss Tiger. It's been months now and I Still don't know how to deal with it. I'm in a place where changes are about to happen but I don't know when it will happen. I don't know what will happen when the time comes...
Friday, March 14, 2025
Friday.
Tomorrow is my birthday.
I'm feeling anxious and tired.
I'm going to the Autism program today.
Tomorrow I'm going to the Queer Game Night. I'm also going to Starbucks tomorrow for my free birthday beverage.
I have no idea what I'm doing. I hope something works out.
I want a boyfriend, my first boyfriend, but I doubt I'll ever have a boyfriend. I also doubt I will ever have my first career. I doubt so much.
I'm leaving for the Autism program soon and I feel uncertain about everything.
Thursday, March 13, 2025
Thursday.
Tomorrow, I'm going to the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community. Saturday I'm going to the Queer Game Night and Starbucks for my free birthday item.
I don't know what else I'll do today and the rest of this week.
Wednesday, March 12, 2025
I'm tired and overwhelmed. I went to Walmart and I had trouble buying 2 items because of a coupon. I went by Taco Bell for a free frozen Baja Blast for my birthday. It took so long to get one beverage. After Walmart I went to circle K and had trouble redeeming a promotion. I came home and my phone died.
I'm going somewhere this evening. I have plans for Friday and Saturday. Friday is the Autistic program at the library in the small town across the river from the community I live. Saturday is the Queer Game Night.
I feel like going to bed. I need to go through my stuff and downsize. I need a place to live. I need an income. I have no idea what I'm going to do.
This country is getting worse. I don't understand why people voted for such a horrible person.
Tuesday, March 11, 2025
Tuesday.
Yesterday I had a long walk to the center. On the way I picked up 2 free chicken sandwiches. I didn't have much to eat prior to leaving and I hadn't had much to drink so by the time I reached the center I wasn't feeling well. It took over 2 hours each way to walk to the center.
I haven't done much today. I'm planning to go somewhere tomorrow. I have plans for Friday and Saturday.
My birthday is Saturday.
Monday, March 10, 2025
Monday.
I'm going out for lunch in a few minutes. I'm going to the center this evening for a D&D program.
I have plans for Friday and Saturday. Saturday is my birthday.
I'm trying to figure things out. I'm trying to find a source of income. This morning I applied to a photographer position at Funko. Yesterday I posted asking for help finding work and I had a bunch of scammers wanting to connect.
I applied to a job at the Lego store at the mall in schaumburg ILLINOIS. I would love to work for either Funko or Lego. I have so many Funko figures. I have several Lego kits and I'd have more Lego if I could afford it and had the space for them.
I don't know what I'm going to do but I hope that things will work out...
Sunday, March 09, 2025
I stayed in bed later today. I tried to play Minecraft today but it keeps saying I don't have enough memory. I don't know what to do to fix this.
I'm overwhelmed and I don't know what to do. I'm planning to go somewhere tomorrow. I have plans for Friday and Saturday. My birthday is March 15th.
I'm uncertain what to do. I don't feel like doing anything but there's so much I want to do.
Saturday, March 08, 2025
I'm tired. I've been awake since 6 AM. I went to the museum for the disability pride day. There were a bunch of organizations with information.
I went by afterwards for a free lunch. I played bingo but I didn't win.
I came home and took a nap. I'm watching the recent episode of The Pitt.
I'm going to watch the new episode of The White Lotus next,
I don't have plans tomorrow but I have plans for the rest of next week.
I hope that things will get better for me soon.
Friday, March 07, 2025
Friday.
I walked to what I thought was an event today but it turned out I had the wrong date. I have no idea when it will take place but I'm not going to worry about it.
Tomorrow morning I'm to the museum near the town across the river from my community. I'm planning to go by for a free lunch afterwards.
I'm tired. I don't know what to do but I feel like doing nothing.
Thursday, March 06, 2025
I'm tired. I went to sleep late yesterday because I watched the newest episode of The Pit and White Lotus. It was sometime after 2. I woke up early to complete my daily sweepstakes and instant win games.
I'm going to a couple of places on Saturday. I have plans next week but I don't know what they are since I haven't thought about next week yet.
I keep thinking about my future. I constantly think about my past. I dream about how things could have been and how things could become. I want to have my first boyfriend. I don't want to have sex with random guys especially old men.
I need to go through all of my stuff get rid of things. I hope to be able to sell some of these things.
If I had money I know what I'd do but I don't have money so I don't know what I'm doing.
My birthday is March 15th. Please consider helping me.
Wednesday, March 05, 2025
Wednesday.
Rain. Wind. Tornado warning.
I woke up early and couldn't get back to sleep. Someone is taking me to pick up some produce today. I don't know what else I'm doing today. I plan to begin going through my stuff and getting rid of things. I need to sell whatever I can to raise funds for my future. I have ideas for things I'd like to do if I had the money.
I'm considering plans for tomorrow morning. I have plans for Saturday.
I think I'll need to take a nap sometime today.
I feel like I'm waiting for the unknown to happen. I feel tired and anxious.
I would like to have a career and my first boyfriend. I don't believe I'll ever have either one.
I played bingo yesterday and I won a candle warmer which I traded the person across from me for a candle. I picked up my free sandwich on the way home but I had to get a ride because the chain on my bicycle kept coming off. The person who picked me up took the bike to a shop to be fixed.
My birthday is March 15th which is also the Queer Game Night.
Tuesday, March 04, 2025
Tuesday. I have a meeting at the library in my community today and then I'm playing Mardi Gra Bingo at the library.
I'm going to a sandwich shop for a free sandwich afterwards.
It's difficult seeing the US turning into a dictatorship with the worst people possible in charge. Things were never perfect but now things are horrible.
Tomorrow I'm going after some produce.
I am considering going to the classic movie program at the library in my community on Thursday. I have plans for Saturday morning. I haven't looked at next week yet.
I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games for the day.
I'm uncertain about what will happen next.
I'm anxious about the future. I'm nervous about what to do.
I'm uncertain if anyone reads my blog.
Monday, March 03, 2025
I attended the dinner at the center yesterday. Today I'm staying home. Tomorrow I'm going to a Mardi Gra Bingo at the library in my community. I have more plans for this week. My birthday is March 15th.
I'm wondering how I'll get through the rest of the year and the next 3 years. I'm wondering how I'm going to do anything.
I'm uncertain about everything and most of the time I don't feel like doing anything. I want to do much but then I wonder why should I do anything.
I want a boyfriend. If you want to be my boyfriend please get to know me by spending time with me.
I want to travel and go camping and go on road trips. I need a boyfriend to show me places.
MONDAY. March 03. 2025.
Sunday, March 02, 2025
Sunday. I'm going to a dinner at the center this evening. Last night I attended the Queer Game Night. The person who hosts the game night gave me a vase of flowers and a card.
I went to bed late last night.
I have plans this week.
I'm planning to go through my stuff and get ready as though I'm moving so I'm more ready for when I'll have to move. I don't know where I'll move because I don't know where I'll go.
I met someone last night who I plan on playing video games with soon.
These days don't feel real. I feel uncertain about everything.
I feel like going back to bed. I also want to go to the dinner this evening...
Saturday, March 01, 2025
Saturday. It doesn't feel real.
I went to a program at the library in my community. There were cupcakes and brownies and popcorn. I went by Tropical Smoothie Cafe on the way home and redeemed the T-mobile Tuesday reward.
I'm going to the Queer Game Night this evening. Tomorrow evening I'm planning to attend the dinner.
I'm on the Archer dating app but I don't think anything will result from it.
I wish that I a boyfriend who would take me on road trips and vacations. I'd like to go camping. I want sex again but only if it's in a relationship. I've considered meeting guys for sex alone but I don't think I could do that again.
If someone were attracted to me I'd like to know. You would have to tell me because I won't pick up on anything subtle.
I'm uncertain about this year and my future.
I have more plans for next week starting tomorrow...
