Wednesday, December 31, 2025

Wednesday, December 31, 2025

I haven't posted in weeks. I've considered posting a few times but didn't feel like it.

I've been here since the day before Thanksgiving.

I've been walking around the area. I now have a library card. I've been trying to deal with being here.

Being here made me realize that I was correct in my thinking about living in South Carolina. If I remain in South Carolina I will spend most of my time alone.

I've spent most of my time since June alone. 

I've been thinking about this time last year. I miss my mom. I miss my cat. I miss my bedroom and my things. I miss my routines.

I was sent a few items for Christmas by a LinkedIn connection. I attended 2 Christmas parties. I have a nice blanket from one party.

The room I'm in is very hot most of the time.

It's been different living in facilities with seniors these past 6 months. 

I'm still waiting for my benefits and I will continue working on moving back to California.

I might walk somewhere tomorrow.

I'm in the middle of nowhere with not much to do...

Monday, November 17, 2025

 Monday, November 17, 2025

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Monday, November 17, 2025

Monday.

I haven't felt like posting these past few days.

As far as I know I'm moving out of this facility Wednesday. I have no idea where I'm going.

I'm trying to get through these last couple of days being here...

Friday, November 14, 2025

 Friday, November 14, 2025

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Friday, November 14, 2025

Friday night.

I've been relaxing today.

I'm catching up on shows on streaming.

I'm counting down the days until my eviction day. Wednesday is the day I'm being evicted...

Tuesday, November 11, 2025

 Tuesday, November 11, 2025

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Tuesday, November 11, 2025

Tuesday night.

It's been cold where I'm currently residing. I've walked outside some but exercised indoors mostly. I've also been watching a show on streaming.

I keep thinking about my life after this place...

Monday, November 10, 2025

 Monday, November 10, 2025

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Monday, November 10, 2025

Friday afternoon I left here for a camping trip to the mountains. I went with my church.

It was great. My two best friends were there. I shared a bed with one of my two best friends in a converted horse trailer. The place we went also had two bathrooms with showers.

Friday on the way there we stopped at

Walmart

McDonald's

Speedway

McDonald's

Ingles

Saturday we went hiking to Rainbow Falls. It was 3 miles round-trip.

The trip came at a perfect time...

again

He was there

Beneath the street light

I fight sleep

I dream in memory awake

Finding him there.

He appeared

We were in my room.

He was on top of me

My legs around his body

I wanted him more than anything else.

I needed every inch of him

I need every moment with him

Until he went away

Never to be in my life again...

fade away

I woke up

In the middle of a dream,

Still dreaming

I spoke out loud,

Can you follow me now

I'm going places in my mind

The kind of thing you remind yourself

Is just a little thing you do sometimes.

I found myself here

Alone in this room

Wishing I knew

Where I'd be next

But the dream lingering 

Fades completely away...