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Wednesday, October 15, 2025

Wednesday evening. I've been watching shows on Hulu. I watched new episodes of a couple of series. One of the shows was the series High Potential which I would watch with my mom when she was alive.

I browsed a few of the shows on my continue watching list on Hulu and I was reminded of watching those shows with my mom. It's very strange not having her anymore. She was so much to me. I miss her each day.

My person from AbleSC is coming by for a meeting tomorrow. We're going to talk about finding housing in California. My DSS caseworker is coming up Friday for a meeting about housing.

I'm looking forward to moving back to California but I'm going to miss living here and being in Greenville. I'm going to miss the people I've met and know here. I already miss the people I knew in the Columbia area.

Sunday is another church picnic.

I've won a few items today from playing the McDonald's monopoly game for free. I also won a free month of Peacock. I'm wondering when the exercise bike I won will arrive.

I don't know why but I haven't been receiving my mail here. When I do receive mail here it's very late in arriving.

I'm feeling better than I have in a long time.

Tuesday, October 14, 2025

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Tuesday, October 14, 2025

It's been a minute since I posted.

I'm planning to post on a daily basis again.

I was given a pill for depression. It made me sick from side effects. I've stopped taking the pill. I'm starting to feel better.

I've been talking with my caseworkers and others helping me about my move back to California. I believe there's progress being made. I'm still waiting on my benefits but I'm working on my move back to California. The one thing of several things I need to figure out is temporary housing in California while waiting to get services in California.

I have a SNAP balance that I believe I could utilize in California for groceries.

I've been thinking about my move back to California. I've considered why I need and want to move back to California.

I went to an apple orchard today with

Saturday, September 27, 2025

I'm sitting here watching The American Housewife. I'm watching it again.

I'm tired. I attended the trans longue support group last night. It's through the Los Angeles LGBTQ center and it is every Friday night.

I keep thinking about past moments while trying to avoid triggering moments.

I imagine being back in California. It's been so long. I know things won't be exactly like they were when I was there before but there's no place that would be like things were before.

I thought about the idea of moving back to the Columbia area but things would not be the way they were before. I lived down there for years and if I lived there again nothing would change.

I want to live somewhere familiar with the potential for change. I need familiar but I also need the possibility for something completely different.

I'm tired of being stuck. I've felt stuck these past few years. I miss my old routine. The only way to move forward is to move back to California and establish a new routine.

I feel like going back to bed. I also want to exercise today.

I need to work on my writing. I need a new laptop since my computer stuff has been stolen.

I'm tired of being here alone all day.

I don't know many people here and I rarely see those I do know. There's no place to go here. There's nothing to do here. This place is depressing and suffocating.

I need to focus on the few things I can do while here.

I'm waiting for my benefits. I'm waiting.

I hope and pray that my move back to California will happen soon...

Friday, September 26, 2025

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I'm still in this residential facility in Greenville County South Carolina. I'm still unable to leave the property without someone coming to sign me out. I've been going through a difficult time. I often think about her and how much I miss her. I often think about my cat, Junior. I hope he's doing well. I often think about everything that was stolen from me including the money.

Wednesday, September 17, 2025

Wednesday morning.

Last night I attended 2 zoom meetings. The first was the writing group that meets each Tuesday. The other one is the Trans Longue that meets the first and third Tuesday.

It's another day stuck here.

This morning I was thinking about camera operating. I operating cameras. I also miss photography with cameras.

I hate being in this in-between place. I need to get my life started.

I want to be a TV showrunner. I need to start writing but I no longer have a laptop to write on.

I'm planning to figure out a more complete daily routine for the duration of being here.

I feel like a prisoner here with a life sentence. I'm trying to get through each day but it's not easy.

I'd like to have a boyfriend. I'm tired of being alone. I don't know how I'm going to meet him since I'm in this facility.

My sinuses are bothering me.

Pride in Columbia SC is approaching. I missed out on Outfest because I was in the hospital ER at the time.

I miss my mom. I knew she would not live forever but I was hoping to have a few more years with her.

I miss my bedroom. I miss my bed. I miss my cat, Junior. I miss my stuff.

DSS has messed up my life.

I've been here 3 months and it's been over 3 months since I was home. It's been over 3 months since I saw my mom. I hate DSS for taking that time with my mom away from me.

I'm going through so much at the moment.

Saturday, September 13, 2025

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